Sunday, March 09, 2008

Just a little over a year ago...

This was last winter - just a little over a year ago. As long as he could still get outside and walk, my Dad rarely missed an opportunity to go around the block with Ben. They loved to explore and discover together. Dad especially enjoyed introducing Ben to the joys of a sled, just as he did his own 3 kids over 40 yrs ago.

So many times a day I wish I could still share things with Dad - especially about Ben. I wish Ben & Opa could have had just a few more years together. Am grateful that my Dad made the most of the time they did have.

I have a friend who lost her Dad just over a year ago. She was telling me about this song a few weeks back. I hadn't heard it then, but the other day it came on while I was in the car. I couldn't listen to it. I can't even read the words now. I know some of you will feel the same... but here it is:
You Can Let Go
by Crystal Shawanda

Wind blowin' on my face
Sidewalk flyin' beneath my bike
A five year-old's first taste
Of what freedom's really like
He was runnin' right beside me
His hand holdin' on the seat
I took a deep breath and hollered
As I headed for the street

You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Oh, I think I'm ready
To do this on my own
It's still a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I'll be okay now, Daddy
You can let go

I was standin' at the altar
Between the two loves of my life
To one I've been a daughter
To one I soon would be a wife
When the preacher asked,
'Who gives this woman?'
Daddy's eyes filled up with tears
He kept holdin' tightly to my arm
'Til I whispered in his ear

You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Oh, I think I'm ready
To do this on my own
It still feels a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I'll be okay now, Daddy
You can let go

It was killin' me to see
The strongest man I ever knew
Wastin' away to nothin'
In that hospital room
'You know he's only hangin' on for you'
That's what the night nurse said
My voice and heart were breakin'
As I crawled up in his bed, and said

You can let go now, Daddy
You can let go
Your little girl is ready
To do this on my own
It's gonna be a little bit scary
But I want you to know
I'll be okay now, Daddy
You can let go
You can let go

6 comments:

  1. {{HUGS}} to you Mo! I can't imagine the pain you feel in losing a parent. Ben was blessed to have his Opa in his life for the short time he did! He may not remember as he gets older but he can look through your scrapbooks and hear the stories!!

    Beautiful song! It totally made me cry!!

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  2. Anonymous8:57 PM

    Heard this one just yesterday and had to pull over to let the tears flow.. Hugs to you my friend

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  3. Mindy4:40 PM

    I'm sending hugs too. That's a really touching song... thanks for the tears. xo

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  4. Thinking about you, Mo. Hugs.

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  5. i'm bawling... love ya mo..sending hugs and prayers...

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  6. Oh Mo! What a beautiful picture. I was really close with my father in law too and I miss him everyday.
    My heart is breaking for you!!
    xoxo

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